CATHARSIS
(noun) the purging of emotions or relieving of emotional tensions, especially through certain kinds of art, as tragedy or music
This [CATHARSIS] is both what I need and what gives value to my musical expression—my expression in general.
People who preach toxic positivity like that found in more 'spiritual' circles do not do not allow space for emotions such as anger and heartbreak to exist—but those artists who release cries of pain through their work enable others to get in touch with their heavier emotions and purge—people can sing along and have a cathartic experience. This is valuable.
I realize one of my biggest issues is my own resistance to not being okay. Instead of owning things like being a smoker or having a moody aesthetic, I give a shit about other people not seeing me all 'love and light' with a big happy smile on my face. Fuck that.
What's wrong with being a bastard if I've got a heart of gold?
What's so bad about really tasting melancholy, turning its many shades of flavor into a beautiful elixir of unbridled expression?
Going deep into my feelings is where art happens...
...and yet I've been living with someone for whom I have to put on an act lest I'm judged as too much, too emotional, too negative, etc.
BUT THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO WOULD
LITERALLY PAY TO WITNESS MY ART
THE BARING OF MY SOUL & MY HEART
people who would see it as a gift
to experience and share in my